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Okay, 2016. You sucked. Except for fic! Also Ackles twins. I'm late posting this because 2016 sucked personally in major, major ways for me that I don't want to go into right now because this is a happy post, damn it! I'm so grateful for fandom and the joy in reading and writing and sharing that it gives me. I wish there was something more I could do to give back or pay forward all the love and support and hope I find here, but anyway. At least I can post this list of some of the most awesome fics I've read this year. So here it is, in no particular order and probably badly coded despite my best efforts (damn iPad 2! I need a new one!) This list is dismally incomplete, but I'm determined to get it out before this month is done, so.

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Having seen others do this end-of-the-year wrap-up thing, I'm not going to feel too shy about doing it myself. Seriously, there's value in taking stock of last year's accomplishments and setting goals for the coming year, right? And there are times when I really need the encouragement and motivation that creative accomplishment provides, so there's that, too.

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This week is the one when I feel least in control the whole year. Christmas is coming up, I still have shopping to do (little stuff for stockings, so I can't just order them, not that they'll come in time anyway!) I have to work every day but Christmas this week, when I really need to stay home and get ready for Christmas. I have piles of unwrapped gifts in the closet, haven't finished the grocery shopping for those weirdly different-because-they're-supposed-to-be-special Christmas Day meals, and now we've decided to go to the midnight Mass on Christmas Eve, after working all day and trying to get said gifts wrapped. All I want to do is drink!

Fandom-wise, on the other hand, things are awesome! I finished my [ profile] spn_j2_xmas story, Roses in the Rain, and I really loved writing it. Also loved writing for the [ profile] spn_bigpretzel Holiday Drabble Challenge, which ends today, although I couldn't quite keep up with my goal of a 100-word drabble each day! (I only wrote four.) I'm deep into the porny thing I'm doing for January [ profile] smpc and I have a wildly out-of-control draft for [ profile] sammybigbang. Got the draft in for [ profile] spn_reversebang this past week, but it needs work too, so. I haven't had enough time to read all the wonderful fics coming out this month, but I adore the wonderful, twisted xmas fic written for me by [ profile] dimeliora so please check it out here.

Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, Happy New Year, and much happiness to all!
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When Jared's tweets came in last night at about 9:30 my time all I could think was it's like 2:30 in the morning in Europe and Jared is crying out for help and it hit so hard I don't know how to express it. So I followed tweets for awhile until I was just too exhausted and teary-eyed to think, and then woke up again at 4:00 a.m. to check my twitter feed again and listen to Jensen sing "Sweet Home Alabama" and ask myself, okay, this is a person I've never met. I get why I cry about the characters, but why am I crying over this person I don't even know? Could someone please explain this to me? Cuz I'm a wreck. Yes, I sent tweets to him because ONLY THE MOST HARD-HEARTED MONSTER COULD RESIST THAT PLEA! Now I just need to vent because these emotions are stronger than they should be and my brain is telling me I'm a complete idiot but my heart is just sobbing.

Thanks for letting me vent, world!
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Got the draft done for [ profile] spn_j2_bigbang and am working on one for [ profile] smpc that is supposed to post this Sunday (ha!) At least it's almost done. Then I have to edit and find a way to post it since it's been awhile since I've done that. Then I need to turn my attention to [ profile] spn_meanttobe which posts sometime in May (ha again!) I've also signed up for the [ profile] wincest_bigbang and am looking forward to working on that because I've got ideas ideas ideas and I'm so excited! I still have stories from AO3 I want to post over here, so there's also that.

And how am I supposed to keep up with this amazing show? The last two episodes have been swimming in feels, making my little wincestuous heart pound with glee! How I love watching the boys doing anything and everything for each other, throwing all moral high ground to the wind and destiny be damned! Although I'm still reeling from Sam's comment to Charlie that he loves hunting, but I'm taking that as he loves his life with Dean, which is pretty much what he says next about not wanting to do it without Dean, so that's my interpretation. LOVED this episode! All the mixing of bodily fluids! Creepy good!
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Overwhelmed by all the amazing fics pouring into my inbox from [ profile] spnspringfling! Then to top off my weekend, the most amazing fill for one of my prompts for [ profile] spn_masquerade. I'm still shaking over that one. It's way more than I deserve by a brilliant writer and it's unbelievably perfect. Never expecting to get such a marvelous fill, I have no idea what to do. Do I thank her? Do I let her know she filled a prompt from somebody she doesn't know or give two tits about? Why does this feel like high school all over again?!

Also, why does the advent of spring make me so depressed? April may be the cruelest month, but March is positively vicious. Bought daffodils today just to cheer myself up. Will watch SPN tonight -- maybe something light? Or something sad so I can cry it out?

Have 20K written on my bb story. Wondering if I can make it a "to be continued" fic?

Time to cease and desist all the rambling! Need to read! But mostly need to write, write, write!
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Woke up early to work on my bb story and managed to delete the entire thing. All 15K words, just gone. No back-up. Then I broke my glasses. Walked to the optomotrist to get my glasses fixed in the snow and got attacked by a dog. No broken skin, luckily, just shaken up...

Can I just go back to yesterday and start over, please???
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I'm still feeling a little giddy! Got up early cuz today was my posting day on my very first challenge fic for the SPNKinkBigBang on tub! I posted it first on AO3 cuz it's way easier than this place, but I'll try to get that done later today or tomorrow.I can honestly say this has been the BEST experience I have had since joining this fandom. Having the privilege of collaborating with smalltrolven, who kindly beta'd my fic, offering innumerable suggestions and endless encouragement, and the amazing talents of winchesterchola, whose artwork has brought the story to life in ways I never imagined, has just blown me away and now I am dead. I'm still shaking, and probably will be for awhile over this experience! I just feel profoundly lucky and so, so happy it's a little ridiculous! I LOVE YOU ALL AND YOU'RE ALL SO BEAUTIFUL! (who needs drugs? ;)
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I don't know how Jane Austen could write at the dining room table. All I did today (oh, besides the usual cooking, cleaning, and snow removal) was respond to constant cries of "I'm bored!" and "what are you doing?" whenever I started to try to concentrate. My only real writing time is 5:00 a.m. before everybody gets up, but once the kids and hubby get up it's just not happening :(
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Thanks to the lovely [ profile] elwarre, I finally got most of my fics posted here! After struggling with this platform for more than a year, I finally feel like I'm getting the hang of it. Win! And just in time to post my first-ever challenge fic for So I spent yesterday and today posting fics -- practice, practice, practice! and shoveling snow (endlessly). Last weekend it was awesome, reading a [ profile] runedgirl fic as the snow fell, but this week we're all feeling pretty sick of it. The snow on either side of our driveway is taller than Sam!

Trying to write 1,000 words a day and starting to get into this new fic. Young Sam is so addicting!
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Spent the day inside, baking cookies, watching the snow fall, posting fan fiction. School is canceled for tomorrow, so with both kids home I may not get any more time to myself, so at least I got several stories imported from AO3 today. Thanks to the wonderful [ profile] elwarre, who helped me remember how to code (something I haven't done while raising kids so it's been awhile!) I get a little obsessive when I have a project (my personality type sorta comes out Sam Winchester every time) so I've still got work to do, but have mostly managed to import my ten best fics so I'm hoping to get some feedback. Or at least they're posted here in time for the challenges I have on my calendar cuz I have deadlines and they're not about work or kids! I feel so free!
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It took me three hours this morning, after watching the latest episode, but I finally THINK I've got my fic posted. I need to practice because I've joined three challenges and will need to post those stories eventually. So I broke the thing down into eight chapters, posted each one with tags and edits (too much space between the paragraphs -- is there a way to delete these en masse like I can do in Word? That would so much save time!) then the Masterpost with all the links to the individual chapters. Then I get emails for each chapter, like I posted them as separate entries! Which I guess I did, but what a pain! Not to mention I've probably flooded other peoples' inboxes -- so sorry! I guess I need help. How do I -- oh wait, maybe if I post each chapter privately? Then just the Masterpost can go public? Oh. Well, that was embarrassing!
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Signed up for the 2015 [ profile] spn_j2_bigbangand the [ profile] spn_meanttobechallenge and am feeling positively giddy with excitement! The spnkinkbb has been such a great experience I can't wait for more! Loved "The Hunter Games," and it's got me thinking about where things are going and what I can do to fix it, which is all I've been doing with my fiction for the past six months, I think. I'll try to post two or three of my stories here if I can over the next week in anticipation of the spnkinkbb postings in mid-February (because I need the practice!) They're already up over on AO3, but I need to try to post everything over here too, so. Also on, I guess, where I opened an account about a year ago and haven't been back since! Oh well..Why do I have to work again? Oh yeah, that little pesky thing called money. I guess I need it, even if I wish I could subsist on pretty pictures of Sam & Dean and wincest fanfiction alone!
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Yes, it's true. I'm finally, gainfully employed. Didn't think it would EVER happen, but life has a way of throwing me curves and I don't even play baseball, so I guess I'm lucky. Sure didn't see it coming, after six years of looking for steady employment and finding nothing but part-time and parenthood (NOT that I'm complaining!)

Missing my show, of course. Wishing I could stay in the world I've been writing. Wee!chesters and schmoop and cuddling and oh hell, lots of brother-loving and I don't want to leave! But the end is near -- if I can get this thing done this weekend it's off to my awesome beta and the incredible artist who are both blowing my mind with their insights and support. It's been an incredible journey, thanks to them, and I feel so so lucky I can't even express.

If I can just let this thing go I can move on -- is this like childbirth? NO, it's more like letting the first child go after 18 years of constant companionship!
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Okay, so I started writing and posting fan fiction about one year ago. One year and one month or so ago, to be semi-exact. The first story was awful, duh, Read more... ) but the muse was with me and my excitement about this show was overwhelming so I got a few good lines in here and there. That was about this time last year, and I didn't know what I was doing so I followed Lyn and the Fangasm stuff and based on what she said I did my best over here at LJ but it had been so long since I did a fandom (ten years!) that I really couldn't get the hang of it so I got hooked on tumblr and ended up finding friends there, so. But eventually I ended up back here bc this is where so much great fan fiction is made and I NEED IT. Vidders, writers, artists to help me make sense of this amazing story and I NEED to write about it, so.

Anyway, I'm a little tipsy and I have to work tomorrow but at least I get Christmas off and I'm still so ridiculously clueless and lonely in this fandom that here I am writing this at 10:00 p.m. the day before Christmas Eve how pathetic is that?!

Also, I'm totally procrastinating bc I'm getting towards the end of my latest long fic and it's scaring the shit outta me. It's long and it's SO emotional and I'm having the most AMAZING experience with the most incredible beta and gorgeous artist and I'm --

Okay, time to stop. This is going on way too long!

So just signing off, and may you all have a less-than-horrific Christmas with someone who cares about you as much as you deserve.
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Srsly, why do I love New England weather? Maybe because growing up in Portland, Oregon where it was always rainy and grey in the winter makes me appreciate all the sunshine and bright whiteness of New England in winter. Also, after years of living dirt poor in a fourth-floor walk-up, finally having a house of our own in the woods with a fireplace and a Christmas tree feels so Norman Rockwell I'm puking in my mouth a little. In a good way. It doesn't hurt having a day off after working fourteen days straight, yeah. I was starting to worry I'd never get over the 15K-word-hump on this story, but now it's flowing again so everything's fine. Heard from my lovely artist and am feeling a little overwhelmed.

Back to work!
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So. Making progress on this latest story, my first fic for a Big Bang challenge. No beta yet. Wondering how I can find one...need to ask someone. This is all so new and weird! Next check-in is Monday. I have about 18K words now and still getting fresh ideas. The mid-season finale gave me another story about their growing up days! So excited to see if I can include that somehow!
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Then I'm posting this huge thing and getting it off my head. I still find it impossible to post stories here unless I cut and paste, which just seems ridiculous, so this one goes on AO3 along with my previous 12 stories. Feeling proud and accompished!

Now i need to watch some season 1 & 2 again to get some fresh inspiration!


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