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Fandom-wise, on the other hand, things are awesome! I finished my spn_j2_xmas story, Roses in the Rain, and I really loved writing it. Also loved writing for the spn_bigpretzel Holiday Drabble Challenge, which ends today, although I couldn't quite keep up with my goal of a 100-word drabble each day! (I only wrote four.) I'm deep into the porny thing I'm doing for January smpc and I have a wildly out-of-control draft for sammybigbang. Got the draft in for spn_reversebang this past week, but it needs work too, so. I haven't had enough time to read all the wonderful fics coming out this month, but I adore the wonderful, twisted xmas fic written for me by dimeliora so please check it out here.
Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, Happy New Year, and much happiness to all!
Thanks for letting me vent, world!
And how am I supposed to keep up with this amazing show? The last two episodes have been swimming in feels, making my little wincestuous heart pound with glee! How I love watching the boys doing anything and everything for each other, throwing all moral high ground to the wind and destiny be damned! Although I'm still reeling from Sam's comment to Charlie that he loves hunting, but I'm taking that as he loves his life with Dean, which is pretty much what he says next about not wanting to do it without Dean, so that's my interpretation. LOVED this episode! All the mixing of bodily fluids! Creepy good!
Also, why does the advent of spring make me so depressed? April may be the cruelest month, but March is positively vicious. Bought daffodils today just to cheer myself up. Will watch SPN tonight -- maybe something light? Or something sad so I can cry it out?
Have 20K written on my bb story. Wondering if I can make it a "to be continued" fic?
Time to cease and desist all the rambling! Need to read! But mostly need to write, write, write!
Can I just go back to yesterday and start over, please???
Trying to write 1,000 words a day and starting to get into this new fic. Young Sam is so addicting!
Missing my show, of course. Wishing I could stay in the world I've been writing. Wee!chesters and schmoop and cuddling and oh hell, lots of brother-loving and I don't want to leave! But the end is near -- if I can get this thing done this weekend it's off to my awesome beta and the incredible artist who are both blowing my mind with their insights and support. It's been an incredible journey, thanks to them, and I feel so so lucky I can't even express.
If I can just let this thing go I can move on -- is this like childbirth? NO, it's more like letting the first child go after 18 years of constant companionship!
Anyway, I'm a little tipsy and I have to work tomorrow but at least I get Christmas off and I'm still so ridiculously clueless and lonely in this fandom that here I am writing this at 10:00 p.m. the day before Christmas Eve how pathetic is that?!
Also, I'm totally procrastinating bc I'm getting towards the end of my latest long fic and it's scaring the shit outta me. It's long and it's SO emotional and I'm having the most AMAZING experience with the most incredible beta and gorgeous artist and I'm --
Okay, time to stop. This is going on way too long!
So just signing off, and may you all have a less-than-horrific Christmas with someone who cares about you as much as you deserve.
Back to work!
Then I'm posting this huge thing and getting it off my head. I still find it impossible to post stories here unless I cut and paste, which just seems ridiculous, so this one goes on AO3 along with my previous 12 stories. Feeling proud and accompished!
Now i need to watch some season 1 & 2 again to get some fresh inspiration!