Venting

[amypond45]

Just finished my fic for spnopera and I'm in agony. This is torture, I say, PURE torture! Why did I do this to myself? How can I write something with such a blatantly sad ending? I always try to leave things open-ended, the possibility just beyond the end of the story that maybe, MAYBE this time, something good will come out of the pain and sorrow and TRAGEDY of these boys' lives! This was supposed to be FUN, damn it! Now everybody's gonna hate me when they read it and I don't blame them. Me too! Wahhhhhh!

This is NOT anyone's fault but my own, needless to say; the wonderful mods of this challenge are fabulous people and extremely talented writers, so I have only myself to blame for my own misery. I hope I've learned my lesson and next time I'll choose a comedy (Marriage of Figaro, maybe?) I just like the aria so much and I couldn't resist the thing with the hair *sigh*. I'm doomed.

Comments

[milly-gal.livejournal.com]

Oh hun, I think the fact that you know how much sad endings upset you and you still went through with it shows great courage and determination to finish a challenge *hugs*

[amypond45.livejournal.com]

Yeah, and it didn't help that I just read gojyochan's incredible story for this year's spn_j2_bigbang (Talk about devastating!) or thursdaysisters's wonderfully horrible (horribly wonderful?!) piece for this challenge. I seem to need to destroy myself this summer!

[gojyochan.livejournal.com]

All I can say is that you should find a way to enjoy your reader's reactions even if their hearts are broken! I went into my BB wanting to hurt people (sorry, I was in a weird place creatively!) and once they started being truly upset I felt horrible! I had to get past it because I knew it would be heartache filled and embrace the feedback. I am writing fluff now for my next challenge as a pallette cleanser! Hugs!

[amypond45.livejournal.com]

"...you should find a way to enjoy your reader's reactions even if their hearts are broken!"

I so much agree with this! I'm always so grateful for every single comment, and I am appreciating the responses to this fic with extra-special passion, no lie. But I have decided it's time to take a step back for a few weeks, just read all the wonderful BB and summergen fics I've been missing, plus there's new porn!